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Friday, August 22, 2014
`Moody

Feel so moody these few days. No one I can talk to. Want to tell him my problem only scared will push him further away. To him i'm always problematic and affecting him. But if I dun talk to him who else I can speak to. Nobody.. sometimes just feel so damn emo.. at the end of the day only writing it out makes me feel better.

I try to change but it seems so hard. My new motto now is to fake until I make it and delete the word paiseh in my dictionary. But how? I have grow up this way and live like that for 26 yrs. I wan to do something but the inner me keeps reminding me.

Whats there to shy.. so what if ppl have the perception that I'm shy? Thinking is something I can control. But how long can I last?

I need someone to push and pull me along guide me through. But who is there to help me? He know my problem but he cant be bothered becoz he think I have to learn it myself. Is he helping this way?

How can help me?



Juz LeeN ♥ 1:00 AM