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Sunday, September 01, 2013
`Feeling sad and useless

5 years already I am still making the same mistakes. Complain. Comment. Attitude. I really hate myself for doing these. All I wanted was his attention. But I fail to stop. I know I have to but I did not.

He said he can live without me. He said : 你最大的错,就是让我觉得我可以没有你。 I am really heart broken. Am I such a failure? He wants support and encouragement.  I never give a single bit at all? Its just that complaining and showing attitude overwrite everything I did.  His words are getting more harsh to me now. I rather he pin point my mistake immediately when I did something wrong. But he accumulated all the pain and suffering. Never give me a chance to know and learn to change.  Now after everything I did he said this to me. It makes me feel really useless. I cant stop tearing. I feel damn sad.. 不知道应该怎么办才好。。。

My eyes are very swollen now. For crying the whole night and woke up crying again..

I want to change but where should I start from? :'(

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Juz LeeN ♥ 10:11 AM