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Sunday, September 20, 2009
`Sleepless night

I'm feeling terrible right now... It has been long since the last sleepless night.. I've tried to make myself sleep from 1am until now but all I did was flipping left and right on my bed.. I tried not to think of the pain in my stomach but its just so unbearable.. It feels so abnormal.. so different... There are so many questions keep appearing in my mind, keep asking myself... Is it because that day I hit it too hard? Is it some kind of illness? Or is it something I ate wrong? I'm super worried la... nobody can understand one..

I want to believe what I heard on my first day of 21st is true. But now it seems like its not going to be true anymore.... Maybe I'm just deceiving myself.. there's no such things as crying all out on the first day and I wont cry in the future.. =(

Sometimes I just hate myself so much.. with the things I've done.


Juz LeeN ♥ 4:29 AM