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Friday, April 21, 2006
`i'm back

hi everyone.. so many days nv blog le.. miz me ma?
School start on monday.. 17/4/06.. first day i met my new classmates.. only me, huiyi, kaixiong,sherman and ivan same class.. i really miss the rest of u all.. *missing ur* haiz.. what to do right? Who tell us choose different option.. hmm my new classmates are fine.. quite friendly but some still dont know their name.. haha.. hmm hope to know them soon..

These few days feel like something is missing.. maybe never get to see u all everyday and miss the jokes that we always share around.. hmm next time must meet oh.. organise more outing.. ^^

Saw buddy in FC4 yesterday.. haha.. he thought i never see him.. eh buddy.. i got see u hor.. lol

Today first lesson 8am.. so early.. somemore first lesson RWPS lo.. but today lesson with compare to last lesson is better.. haha.. only i know y ba.. share our ideas for e project.. grouped with huiyi and meryl -->new classmate.. quite excited about about project.. seems interesting to me.. after lesson chat in the library slack around.. meet weiloong then went to CCA drive lo.. see not every CCA is ready so we went FC5 eat..........

guess wat i saw while eating.. u'll never know and u better not know.. its kinda cuel to me.. the images keep running in my mind.. hunting me.. i'm so confuse now.. i try hard not to believe what is true.. i keep telling myself maybe this n maybe that.. running away from the facts.. i know i shouldn't deceive myself but i just can't do it.. i just can't make myself believe in it.. actually from my observation done long ago i have already know the truth.. i don't want to change my mind set about that person just from what i observe.. but..... from e minute..... just that minute i saw it from my own eyes...... i finally give in to myself.... it was a so heart breaking moment... and it really hurts me... from the start i already know we are impossible but i give in everytime that person contact me.. at times i was sad for missing and angry for no call.. think of it now only shows how stupid i am.. whenever i was angry i promise myself not to think of that person again.. but... i fail to do it.. haiz.. i guess i should stop myself from thinking that now... this time everything should be over for me..... i just hope.... i just hope.... that person can stop coming into my life and affect me............. =( ------- =)

went back to CCA drive after eating.. never see any CCA that suit me... guess only band does.. haiz.. saw e photos of ours at IBM that time.. bring back memories.. but.. i still don't know whether should go back or not.. but my mama don't let le.. guess i will be CCAless lo.. nvm lo.. should concentrate on studies.. at 1pm went for gems.. so boring.. almost all guys lo.. sian.. huiyi was sleeping throughout the whole lecture.. i can't concentrate.. the 'thing' still in my mind.. didn't pay much attention so daydream all the way...


Juz LeeN ♥ 3:53 PM